I was on a downward spiral while using drugs and alcohol to cope with depression and suicidal tendencies as a result from never recovering from sexual assault and neglect at a young age. All the relationships I had involved using or I didn’t want anything to do with it. Eventually I moved from St. Louis Missouri to Cincinnati so my four kids didn’t have to grow up in the busy street life like I did. I stayed clean from crack for three months but I didn’t realize that using alcohol and marijuana meant that I was not living in recovery and I needed help to get away from this life.
I met Jacob, a counselor at CAT, and he recommended I come for detox and outpatient services. November 17th, 2016 is when I came to CAT, and November 18th marks my first day of complete sobriety while in recovery.
While at CAT I met a counselor named Valeri who I credit my sobriety to. She saved my life. She made me want to live. One huge turning point in my life was when Valerie had me write a letter to my mother and read it out loud to her. It was the first time I was completely and brutally honest. Valeri understood me, cried with me, and helped me understand myself and my addiction. From that moment on she helped me find the will and a reason to live. I realize that was the block that was keeping me from getting clean. Afterward, I started listening closely to group leaders on how to prevent relapse and stay in recovery. I am continuing therapy at the Talbert House and I am an active CAT alum and a proud member of NA and I seek to help in any way that I can.
For those of you still struggling with addiction, take it easy. Take it one step and one day at a time. Give yourself a break and remind yourself that this process is well worth it. As we say in recovery, you didn’t become addicted in a day, so you won’t become clean in a day.